My life has changed

in so so many ways

It seems to always be

in a state of disarray...

Without you here

by my side

to hold my hand

and be my guide...

I feel like I'm lost...

wandering through each day

waiting and hoping and praying

that you come to me in some way....

I need you to tell me

that it everything will be okay...

If anyone else is saying it

I never hear them on any day...

Nobody will ever be what

You were to me...

It breaks my heart to know

that I will never see...

Your tender face again

Or touch your fragile body

and feel your unconditional

love reserved only for me...

I would give 10 years

of my life to have you

here with me for just

a month or two...

My love for you began

more than 30 years ago

It grew into a kind of love

that few people ever know...

I know I was truly blessed

to have you as my best friend,

My Grannio and my sole supporter

until the bitter end...

I will never forget

how much you gave,

how much you loved,

or how often you saved...

Me - when I was a little girl

from my nightmares

and when I was grown up

from all the evil dares...

You always stood by me

Faithful, strong and true

Til the bitter end

I knew I could count on you...

Now that you're gone

and I'm here alone

I realize more than ever

all that you've done...

To make my life better,

Safer and Secure

By giving me your love

So unmistakebly pure...

I miss everything about you

all that you were to me

every single day I think

of how my life used to be...

When you were here

with Jakob and me

Things were so different

that it's hard to see...

Why God had to take you

away from me and my son

so much, much too soon

before your time had come...

I will never understand

and I will forever fear...

how much life hurts

without you here...

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